Everything y’all have said is being taken into consideration
I’m not a moron FFS
I am however a ‘Paladin in Hell’, making the best of it.
SOME of YOU are fuckin’ morons…
Y’all know of whom I speak.
Unhelpful rants about me, about my choices w/out KNOWING me, OR my fam from now on earn a “Go And Get Fucked Off” level of ban-hammering. I know what I’m dealing with. MOST of y’all have no idea -who- or what I really am, (and capable of) and wouldn’t have the balls to say it to my face…
Make of that what you fucking will…
So anyways, thus far?
The total financials on this?
$5020 in Biohazard Cleanup.
$1890 in Cremation
$500 in filing paperwork w/the State for Emergency Custody (of which I am not on)
NONE of which have come out of MY pocket.
Baby “Stuff” to include onesies, and a new bassinet? $169.00
THOSE I paid for, as it’s the least I could do, as the bassinet that the kid was in? Jeebus Christo…. it’s less than 4 months old and it’s already ripped, broken and decrepit like it came out of a shithole trailer park. I am NOT allowing THAT in mi Casa.
It’s a safety issue.
Cleanliness thing too…
HOPEFULLY I can recover the Taurus Model 65
Hate to see a good weapon with a proper kill count got to waste… Jes’ Sayin’
And despite what everyone is saying about G… Let me tell you
It’s REAL Easy to talk shit when you have no idea the sit-rep.
REALLY easy to pass judgement.
She fucked up
WE ALL fuck up
Anyone who states otherwise is a fucking liar.
She however did save my ass when it really counted.
Even Sapper, who utterly loathed her from the bottom of his blackened female-hating soul has seen a bit of her redemption.
I mean FFS, the Sausage Princess ADORES her.
In fact, not for nothing, Stella has a thing for babies. BOTH previous Grand-Daughters, the Nukular Redhead and Addy, Stella was the ‘self appointed doggo-mama’
Meaning she’d wrap herself around said aforementioned grans, and guard them with her life.
Last night, the first night of Gran #3, a baby boy named “Axel” here at the house in his new bassinet?
Yeah…. quick aside
Trust me….
NOT my idea of a great name either… I’m calling him ‘Muldoon’
Anyways
Stella last night? She wrapped herself in one of his blankies he wasn’t using, and then proceeded to lay down in front of the bassinet, and check every. single. person/animal that came by…
Like MASSIVE protective mode.
Even snapped at Chili when Chili came in and tentatively growled at the smol-hairless ape… rocked Chili back on her ass… let her know that “That’s MY baby BITCH!”
So today we had to go to have G turn in her gear at the Prison
That’d be the Florida Womans Reception Center in Marion for all the fuckwit know-it-all tardos who think they know their shit… In the future, sit the fuck down, mind your manners, lest things get ugly.
Oh yeah forgot to mention… G got fired on Tuesday.
For those of you following, they started fucking with her over a sexual harassment report she filed. This was the culmination, and I’ll leave it at that on advice from Counsel. Yeah… we have a case… that’s all I can say…
And yes, this’s been a week the likes of which couldn’t even be scripted in Hollyweird TBH… what a shitshow!
So while we were loading up, Stella The Sausage Princess refused to NOT go with, despite it being a total of a 6 hour drive round trip with very short potty breaks. She spent the time either checking to make sure Muldoon (who slept the entire trip (great kid for road trips let me tell you) was OK, or just laying her head in my lap, as she IS getting older… the sunlight showed just -how- much gray she has… dammit.
So to end on a funny note tho, after dropping off the gear, and letting Stella take a BIG ole shit on the front grass of the Admin building (Good Girl!!!! Good Dog!!!! and YES it was a MASSIVE stinky pittie-poop) a fren from the People’s Glorious Tractor Factory called to see how I was doing.
Mind you he and I spoke on Monday AFTER I was ‘released’
He’s an older guy, gay, and ‘married’ so to speak.
One of those really cool gay dudes who’s comfortable in his own skin, and that I’m free to joke with. We share an enjoyment of 80’s comedy, and frequently use quotes from movies in our conversations… After he’d gotten caught up on the litany of my bad luck this week, he was all apologetic and I told him “It’s all good… but the only issue I have is I sure picked a bad week to quit sniffing glue!”
His reaction? He started by apologizing for my troubles, and quickly cut in, with the proper lispy-intonation “Look! There’s a sale at Penny’s!!!”
I almost crashed the car I was laughing so hard.
I appreciated it
I needed that.
ADDENDUM:
I -just- found this
Couldn’t do any better myself:
So More Later
BCE
Keep calm and get your honk on.
LOL is the way to upkeep morale.
Glue sniffing jive talking is always open.
Too fast. Run Forest run! Kent
Man, I dunno what asshole said what but, God Bless You Brother, hang in there, keep doing what you’ve been doing. One foot in front of the other. We’ll get there.
Yeah, those are my feelings as well. Good for BCE! Although I admit I can’t know the details (where all devils reside) of your situation, I do know that Love is always a double-edged sword: evil people often have the ability to turn it to their own ends and use its strength for their benefit. I don’t know if it would have been better or worse if Gretchen had been cold enough to toss her (foolishly) beloved daughter to the curb, but I figure it might be good for her grandchildren that she couldn’t, especially as the little Buddha now needs a real loving parent.
Keep on keeping on.
+☝️
Tom762
Included you on my Hail Mary prayer list every day this week at 6 am. I hope that it brought you some peace.
“…we have a case…”
I note the “we”. Idskid is what the shrinks call that.
You are in for more months/years of fucktardiness.
And Please find the the puppers a proper home where they wont be harmed. Its coming. The debbil dont change for real- he lies low until the next opportunity while gaining your trust.
No hate, BCE, just a second set of eyes repeating back what was reported in the past.
Call it the devil, call it a Cluster B personality disorder, call it whatever you want. Moments of extreme emotionality and vulnerability leave them seeking for something to destabilize them, then once destabilized, they can’t keep a lid on it. Part of it is they grew up in an environment without stability and anything more than momentary stability scares the shit out of them and they’re waiting for the shoe to drop.
So creating drama by inserting crazy relives that fearful anticipation because they get to control when/how the drama occurs, ambushing loved ones in the process.
She aint evil, she’s just got a highly volatile pattern playing in her psyche that gets splodey when things get too good.
Jonsey, Yeah, call it whatever you want. Harming a puppy is so far beyond redemption… Maybe all the shit dumped on her (brought upon herself perhaps- a combo of nature/nurture so to speak) is the karma that other commenters are talking about, eh?
Sorry, I get pretty wound up when a dog is harmed. JimmyPX below seems pretty rational. Well more than a lot of us.
Also, you have to realize that (almost?) everyone has your best interests in mind, regardless of how crass that they say shit.
Harming a puppy purposefully is just friggin wrong.
Losing your shit and not being able to handle it and hurting a dog? Let’s see the dog’s reaction to that person. Dogs are better at counseling than counselors. Dog forgives, dog knows you lost your shit temporarily. Dog doesn’t forgive, dog knows you are shit.
My dog loves me, totally and unabashedly. There are times, though, when the darkness hits and he gets out of my way because I’m in full dark mode.
Shit happens and things can go wrong sideways fast.
Big takeaway, did/does the dog forgive her? From what we’ve been told, G went friggin insane under the pressure of DC.
Yeah, don’t strike kids, pets, women. But, well, insanity under stress is still insanity. One can get better. Did G apologize and mean it? Th at’s what matters. Dog and G okay now?
Buddy’s son named his kid Atlas. Kid is 5 now and his woke wife is painting his toenails. Wonder how that will wind up?
mr kee, refer said child to Chuck Liddell when he reaches the appropriate age. He painted his toenails from time to time. Good role model. Kinda.
UFC champion with an accounting degree and a dude I’d love to have a beer with.
Stay the course BC! Let the “Keyboard Warrior Tards” spew their crap. Misery loves company after all. You are a Real GD Hero and I’d stand the line any day with ya!
Ditto – and Amen!
‘MOST of y’all have no idea -who- or what I really am, (and capable of) and wouldn’t have the balls to say it to my face…’
…Of course we don’t, but after all these years of reading, you do show a big heart and caring nature that after all I have read, is amazing; in light what stories you have shared and the carnage you have seen
Just saying bro…
you have presented more hoomanity then almost all the IRL peeps I have ever ( or in you case never ) met.
You give hope and a hoot with every post, that we( read all humans) are not as collectively fucked as it seems.
So, thanks for that.
Keep on truckin … for all our sakes
People gotta hate. Karma will get them, sometimes with a little assistance.
Loved Airplane and Airplane II. I like to go with “Looks like I chose a bad week to go insane!” from a deleted scene in Airplane II.
BCE,
Man plans, and God laughs. Go enjoy your life as you see fit. In so doing, you inspire the rest of us.
best of luck. sounds like you should be at the head of the line in the next life for a better eternity. youve done your time in the shit here.
My heart is with ya, bro. These things are beyond hard.
No change in my assessment – yer a good man Charlie Brown. Still think the tractor factory will be back in touch when the a-hole Brit is booted, people that work his way do not last in any job. As always, vaya con dios amigo.
Don’t know how much pull I got with Big Daddy up there, but I’m praying that you catch a good break and finally settle down to some non-boring peace eventually.
I know from my own experience that the scars from walking through hell aren’t always seen…but they’re there. All we can do is display them as badges of honor, raise up the middle fingers, and carry on.
Like the old saying goes. Learn not to mind, because the nay sayer does not matter. AND delete their asses. Soldier on and pet the pup.
“Unhelpful rants about me, about my choices w/out KNOWING me, OR my fam from now on earn a “Go And Get Fucked Off” level of ban-hammering. I know what I’m dealing with. MOST of y’all have no idea -who- or what I really am, (and capable of) and wouldn’t have the balls to say it to my face…”
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Full disclosure: I’m 63 years old, weigh 150 lbs, am 5’8″ tall, and have a bad back and a hernia. I am not, nor have I ever been, in the military or law enforcement. You could break me like a twig and not break a sweat.
Even so, I tell you here and would tell you to your face: based on what you posted about these people and the horrible melodrama (over the long haul), I believe you are being foolish. You’re a warrior in search of a war and people who don’t have your best interests in mind are (one more time) taking advantage of your instincts to protect & serve.
’nuff said… -Henry
I feel for you. I got kicked around for about 7 years. This too will pass.
It could be worse, You could be my ex girlfriend, lost her medical license for doing drugs, got injured by the jab so she couldn’t do surgery even if she got her license back, has over $200,000 in student loans and $200,000 in other debt, was working nights in a mini mart but quit that to take care of her sick mother, and has an over 180 IQ so she thinks she is smarter than everyone. The icing on the cake is she was a pretty woman who now is not. Oh yea, her pregnant daughter with 3 baby daddies house just burnt down.
Have faith. Give as much as you can to God, he is always up anyway.
BCE most of the people commenting on the last post weren’t saying things out of being dicks or piling on rather they were concerned for you and looking out for your interests.
As you said I’ll bet $1 Sapper shared many of our concerns.
At the end of the day it is your life and your decision obviously.
You’ve been with G off and on for over a decade and even from what you’ve shown us you had some great times with her and some not so great times.
Now to be fair a majority of the bad shit was directly tied to DC and her antics as well as G’s parents and their situation. DC is gone forever and her parent’s situation at their ages will work itself out one way or the other fairly soon.
So whether you reconcile with G or not is your decision.
It’s your life and concerns aside, I pray that things work out for you and you are happy.
BCE, got your feelings on this from some of the comments. But try and take the comments for what they probably meant in their own ways. I know I fuck up what I actually mean to say when I post at times also. Blog posts are like texting, you shouldn’t do it when emotional because things don’t come out the right way like in face to face interactions with connotation explained.
Maybe its more like: You are loved as a brother from another mother, a family member by the group and when someone fucks with family, its game on. Protect the family member at all costs even if they might not want/need that protection, feel me? And then emotions go high order real quick. Its much like getting in between 2 brothers fighting, best just sit back and watch till things cool down a bit while making sure no weapons are used during the tussle.
According to my Mom, somewhere in Gloucester, Mass. is a family grave and on the stone is a pretty solid epitaph – “he ate what was set before him”. Once again, you’ve stepped in to clean up a very tough situation. Whatever happens next, you were there when you were needed, despite…
Been in my morning commute Rosaries this past week.
Dr. Freckles talks about life being an ice cream cone. You get one scoop. How you eat it is up to you, but you get no seconds.
Oh, almost slipped my mind. I’ll bet that her getting fired was completely on her and her excuses are lies or exaggerations. History, ya know. Take that one with a grain of salt. Trouble follows that puppy torturer.
Like career criminals that can’t stay out of jail, these 2 can’t stay employed.
There is some serious psychotic behavior behind that, along with chronic excuse making and panhandling.
Adults who refuse to own up to their childish behavior, and blaming everyone else for it. And what’s even worse, is the number of people here enabling them.
“…these 2 can’t stay employed”
Are you referring to me?
ONE: I -was- at the People’s Tractor Factory for the past 4 years, and 6 months, until I got hemmed up because of two things. One of the BIG THINGS was I wouldn’t ‘bent the knee’ and do unnecessary ‘busy work’ for an insecure supervisor and kiss his ass as -I- was the HMFIC of MY department… and then
TWO:
I was due an annual salary review. I went from making $18 an hour, to making $20 an hour OVER A FOUR YEAR TIMEFRAME and THIS year, I told ’em to either ‘put up, nut up, or shut the fuck up’…
.50 cents a year?
R U fucking Kidding Me???
And as far as G?
This’s the first real job she’s had outside of her personally owned biddness as a pretty well known hair stylist… and I’ve been well aware of ALL activities as -I’m- the fucker who helped review her sexual harassment case, her whistleblower retaliation case as well as ALL the other shit they put her through. I’m actually surprised she did as well as she did int he “Southern Old Boy’s Prison CO Network”
This is b/c IRL?
The People’s Glorious Tractor Factory was actually a Law Firm where I worked as an Investigator.
I’ll leave it at that…
You’ve been a decent participant here, but if this was disparaging me or G?
I personally think an apology is in Order.
As far as DC?
Bitch FINALLY did something of worth, being an organ doner.
Nuff said.
Holy mackerel Brother they were paying you chump change 20 an hour was what I started at back in 98 when I started my apprenticeship…
All these years I thought you really worked for Tractor Supply Co. LOL.
You’re a good man. Way better than most people deserve.
Dude- you need to go fishin in some quiet spot. I sorry for your hell.
I get it. I might choose differently, but it’s not my decision to make. I know that when I see a dragon, I have to slay it. That’s what dragonslayers do. If you see a dragon, then that’s that. Also, oaths are a heavy thing, and they have a way of enforcing themselves.
HOPEFULLY I can recover the Taurus Model 65
Hate to see a good weapon with a proper kill count got to waste… Jes’ Sayin’
Maybe you should engrave “this machine cures stupid” on the barrel.
I like it.
Still needs a proper notch, though!
Tom762
I think most are just trying to look out for you Brother and hate seeing you make choices that will end up hurting you later on but it’s your life and only you can live it so like CA said keep on keeping on…
Big Country, you gotta be you because being anybody else is phoney.
Good luck and God bless. But you better start looking for somebody to help chase a 3 year old around.
BCE, I’m the guy who kept mentioning “Not your circus, not your monkeys”. Dam shame DC offed her self in front of her Mom. More the pity that she managed to crank out a little baby boy. Perhaps you’ve traded up, one new monkey for the old one. Stiff upper lip my Friend, you’ll get through THIS too. Here’s hoping you get the .357 back, could be an interesting piece to pass down to the little guy someday.
I guess all I can say is what I tell my wife every day — one mission at a time. OODA as you have stated many times. You will find inner strength.
I loved the story about the dog being protective of the child. Bulldogs are so cool.
BCE –
As an occasional visitor, I’d like to believe that many of those, who appeared to be “down” on you
just might have been concerned for you… (some others, maybe not… just saying…)
As it’s known that you have a very big heart…
Much like the grinch who’s heart grew three times it’s normal size after hearing the “who” singing down in “whoville”…
They might have been afraid of you being taken advantage of, and being “dumped” on… again…
But the gravity of this situation was so intense, that it would have been “nill” it’d happen.
You’re to be commended for your compassion and “being there” for those who needed you…
regardless of previous actions by said persons involved…
This proves to all, You Are A Man…
A person of morals, concern for others, and willing to “do”, when other fail…
To have you as a friend, would be an honor to all who know you…
As it’s apparent that you can be counted on, regardless of the situation, because it’s what “Men Do”.
I wish you success in the days ahead, what ever you decide is best for you, and those around you…
And look forward to reading about it…
Most folks think they have friends, but sadly, they only have aquaintances…
Unfortunately, real friends can usually be counted on one hand…
But if an individual has one true friend, they’re lucky in life…
For what it’s worth… just to give you some ear candy…
Tune into WNCW.ORG
Saturday Night House Party is on, now… Sat. 7-10pm
Sunday 12-3pm Celtic winds
And there music mix is great during the week is fantastic !
DC made her choices, right or wrong, and her redemption now rests with God. The worst choice she made was all of the trouble she brought forth on everyone-including herself. It closely follows the “sins of the father……”.
Gretchen can change the baby’s name, once she has official custody. It would be a nice touch to rename him after her father in some way. The old man you have said was honorable, so maybe this will change the child’s luck. Axel is a ghetto name and no one wants him there.
BC, you will make or not make, the decisions that benefit you. Good luck and Blessings.
For everyone who lives a calm, pleasant predictable life there exists some poor schmuck whose entire life is one giant parade of shit shows. It appears you were designated a member of the second group.
As Pepe Le Pew would say “Le Sigh”
Its not just your situation. just how many times in these last 20ish years have we all have had a DC in our lives or DC ajacent?
Its like this shit never ends. We cant create our own community to insulate from it. God knows how many times the Mornons and Amish tried.
Sometimes life just resets, Tiny. Everything goes out the window, you go through the wringer… and it’s a totally different world afterward. Time changes everything.
I love the name “Muldoon”. Did you guys ever get The Champ down in the US? Wasn’t he constantly beating up on Muldoon? 😂👍 When I was a kid, The Champ and Joe Cat Face were celebrities de jour.
I’m going to need your help sourcing some parts for my beloved No.1 rifle – I’ll send you an email when things settle down a bit?
Here he is!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gTFehgGHHhs&t=2s
Not one of his best fights… but not bad either.
Not fer nuthin BCE – but WHY aren’t you on Total Disability Individual Unemployability (TDIU) – 100%??? That seems like a no-brainer for you (and yours – CHAMPVA – your dependents get those benefits.) If you get a lawyer for anything it should be THIS. You are frankly rightfully entitled to this status and it could take a fuckton of weight off your shoulders. Do you have a VSO? IMHO, you need to make getting that status your full time job like tout de suite. File NOW as any determination for your rating is retroactive to your filing (and could go back way further – which is why you should get a lawyer handling it with haste – if you can’t get help elsewhere.)
Dood – this should be TOP priority #1.
You shoukda had that status for years now. It’s a game changer.
And as others have said – put your own oxygen mask on first.
I mean this wholeheartedly and am asking any and all on BCE’s comment threads to rally and chime in. This guy needs – ne DESERVES – this rating like yesterday. Chime in please. Let’s rally!!
You wrote some times about connecting positively with a few guys with religious/spiritual backgrounds who were able to offer insights that were helpful to you. Maybe you could reach out to them, just to talk to someone who will listen without judgement. Your friends here are great but a keyboard is no substitute for a real voice or a human touch, which are better, and necessary.
Heh…been in your situation before where all are questioning me and my methods, and I always fall back to the words of the philosopher Ice Cube, “Fuck all y’all”. Then I just walk away.
Prayers Big Country for you G and the little guy. Maybe your nickname should have been Big Heart. You are a good man and good human. Do your best and pray about what to do and say. All the best brother.
Wife got her dad’s suicide gun back from the cops. Took 2 years. They wanted to hang onto it in case something came up that required investigation. A S&W 457. I cleaned the blood off it and took it out and put a box through it to cleanse it by fire, so to speak. Good shooting pistol. But, it being a DAO first shot, I realized just how intentional his final act was. There was no way to accidentally dome yourself with that particular gun.
Too bad I can’t find spare mags for it that aren’t around $100/ea. Closest thing I could find are some knock offs made by Triple K for around $50.