Greetings and Salutations!
OK
So
Been getting a LOT of DMs from a LOT of you all who have had comms with me in the past, and are concerned that I might be reaching a ‘breaking point’.
It’s understandable.
The reason being is that most ‘normal’ folks would have collapsed/curled up into the fetal position, or just flat out died in wake of this unreal situation. I mean FFS, even Hallmark couldn’t cook up a made-for-TV drama with this much bullshit without being called out on it. It’d be labeled as “completely unrealistic” and yet….
Here I am…
The only thing missing from this shitshow/drama-festivus is someone stealing my pickup or raping Stella the Sausage Princess, and writing an unaccredited coutry song about the whole fucking shitshow right?
Go figure.
So yeah, as shitty and as tough as it is…
I dunno…
maybe it’s because I’m a superior hoomon?
I mean fuck…
How else do I explain it the way as I’ve jokingly referred to it in the past as “…something you stinking puny humans wouldn’t understand!” I mean I ‘cored’ out on my IQ test when I was a kid as above Einstein.
I’m WAY bigger than “the average bear/hoomon”…
Believe you me, I wish I was average.
I’d prefer it.
However, life/circumstance(s) has made it where I seem to be a shit-magnet… NONE of which was by my own choice.
Case in point:
Be me, Baghdad 2004:
Yep
That was the direct hit, and I’m standing where I should have been in front of my wall locker IF I had been on my ‘normal schedule’
Instead I’m still alive
And for those who say I did so by getting w/G, let me tell you, the first three years were GOLD before DC showed up preggers with the Nukular Powered Red Head…(now more Strawberry Blonde). In fact almost ALL of the drama in my life can be connected to G trying to “rescue the unrescuable” so to speak… trying to “salvage the unsalvageable.”
In fact, I did a spreadsheet.
Every. Single. Time. Dumb Dead Cunt did something fucked up, G had an equal and/or fucked up reaction to it… to the point that what she did to Stella? Well… looking back at it, G was fighting with DC, and I -think- ostensibly it was a reaction to her saying “No, don’t do it!” to the interaction she had with DC… you’d have to be here to understand…
The thing of it is?
Stella adores G…
STILL
ZERO animosity.
Not sure if it’s “Pittie Blockheadedness” or what…
Thing is, Stella remembers some of the local dogs she tangled with back when she was younger, and she STILL holds a grudge. Whereas, with G, well… she’s crawling up onto G, and Muldoon’s lap, loving on being the Doggie Mama to BOTH of them… as G was the one who brought Stella a ‘new baby’ to protect…
Best Baby Doggie-Mama EVVAR!!!
(Stella that is)
That’s almost good enough for me.
So yeah… Not sure what to say about it.
Like I said, NO ONE in this life is without sin, not fault.
WE ALL FUCK UP
I’ll work on my faults, and G is working on hers.
Thing of it is, that spreadsheet? And the shit G and I have found out? Hoo-BOY! Well… this’s “The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly” with the first two, the Good and Bad, being left out, ‘cos allllll we got left is a whoooole lot of Ugly.
I got to get this out there as, well….. I dunno… when I stated in last nights post, that the one good thing that came of this was Dumb Dead Cunt being an organ donor?
Unfortunately, it’s faaar closer to the truth than I like.
It bothers me as I’m a good dude, and try like Hell to see the good in a person… in this case? Notsofuckingmucho…
I just hope her organs don’t infect the recipient with ‘teh stoopid’
To start.
90% of what I got is from G and I finding not one, not two but four cell phones. Now mind you, DC usually claimed (and even came at me on the regular, asking for ‘help’ ‘cos her mom was ‘being mean’…) that she didn’t have a pot to piss in, i.e. NO money (to buy formula for the baby and the like) despite having ALL the welfare/bennies and shit, and yet had, not just 4 cellies but three of them were the ‘latest and greatest models’ so to speak, like a Google Pixel 10 (retail $550+ used) or an Apple iPhone 16 (current used valuation is $800+) as well as two others.
What we found on them phones?
I’m not going to go into it.
To a point.
Needless to say, one overwhelming pattern I found was that DC went WAAAAY out of her way to play BOTH her parental units off against each other… like in an evil/sadistic way.
Now to explain in a quick manor.
DC was primarily responsible for G and her 1st Husband for getting divorced. She was such an unbelievable nightmare the very fact these two stayed together as long as they did is a testimony to enduring the unendurable as far as I’m concerned. Lord knows, they tried, but in the end, it all collapsed.
A big part of it was that DC as the years progressed learned how to manipulate the two of them, Mom and Dad AGAINST each other for her own malignant benefit. Which tells you what sort of insane evil narcissist DC was, piss be on her name <hawwwwwk-spitoo!!>.
As I’ve found, she continued this behavior, spinning INSANE stories of how G was essentially a complete Piece of Shit, to the point that when G and I split, G didn’t help things by telling the OtherGrans some bullshit about me when we seperated…
There’s ALWAYS been some animosity between “Papa” (G’s ex-hubs who I consider a fren, much to G’s horror LOL) as I still have some with MY Ex (to a point… TBH I’m beyond any of that NOW as I have enough ‘new shit’ on my plate than to worry about what my Spawn and Ex think of me… no offense gang, Dada has enough on his current plate, Thankee Very Mucho LOL)
But yeah, there was the normal shit.
It’s expected
When Kylie, the Nukular Redhead showed up, -I- was able to bury a few hatchets so to speak between the two of them, as hey… it’s a Grandbaby… we need to work together. I had NONE of the baggage THEY had from all the shit from before, and I thought I’d settled that shit, even with “Papa’s” new wife…
Thing is… over the years, I got ‘complacent’
DC was an evil that even -I- who’ve seen evil up close and personal… true evil… didn’t count on…
Not sure if I ever mentioned it, but there was a Chinese student kidnapped in Baghdad in and around 2004… you won’t find it on the web per se… it takes a bit of digging.
It was when the Haj were snatching/grabbing civilians ALLLL over Iraq, and then beheading them either on video or streaming. In this case, late 2004, Lil Country and I were headed down Route Irish towards Baghdad International Airport… it was our weekly ‘reload’ for booze run… the van that was about 400 meters in front of me, on the overpass headed to the airport, suddenly braked over the top of the overpass, stopped, and two dudes hustled out what looked like a heavy parcel and a smaller package…
They threw both items down the hill on the overpass.
Lil Country and I went to ‘full alert’ as ANY shit like this was ‘questionable’ at best, and we practically crawled up that overpass… no more driving like normal… I mean WHAT did they throw? A bomb? or what??? When we got to where the van had stopped, we noticed there was a significant blood stain on the concrete….
So, like dumbasses, we stopped.
-I- found Joe Chinks nugget
Halfway down the hill… the matted grass gave it away…
I found it, picked it/him up by his hair, and brought it to the truck…
LC found his carcass.
About 40 meters away from his squash.
Blood soaked orange jumpsuit and all…
All we could do was call it in…
We let the Army do the ‘heavy lifting’ there
We ended up missing out on getting to the duty free that day to get out weekly booze ration dammit.
Yeah…
THAT was ‘true evil’ as I and LC knew this kid was a student, just trying to study the Jihad and whatnot, and paid for it with his life…
And back to the original shit:?
DC was that evil
Wish I could put it otherwise, but nope…
Pure Dee Evil
Undiluted hatred of anything good, cool and righteous…
So, DC went way the fuck out of her way to portray G in the worst possible light with her father. ESPECIALLY after she and I seperated. I mean there’s shytte, and then there’s fookin’ shytte’
This shit?
OMFG.
There’s a HUGE part of me that does not want to go into this
BUT
There’s also a HUGE part of me that wants to ‘set the record straight’.
G deserves it.
Papa deserves it.
The Nukular redhead deserves it
However that being to a point as I really do NOT want her aware as to HOW fucked up her bio-mom was… Papa’s new-wife has done a magnificent job being “mom” for the Redhead, and I got ZERO complaints… she’s a good woman, despite being a bit ‘anal retentive’ for my own liking… not a “dis” on her… she’s just too ‘straight’ as most normies are compared to my psycho self LOL…
BUT
All of this being said
DC did cause a LOT of ‘bad blood’ between G and her X…
Like epic levels
ALL for her own crazy self satisfaction
And man, believe you me, I’m the first to call out bullshit…
I’m what Heinlein would have called an “Absolute Fair Witness”… I got no axe to grind. Literally or figuratively. I just want ALL the parties to understand just what we were all dealing with.
Case in point:
Dave the Carcass Clean Up Dude.
Retired Master Sergeant, 92M, Mortuary Affairs Specialist (leader) turned his DotMil experience into a great paying job. I mean it was 2 hours of work to get DC’s brains and spatter off the floor/walls. He billed us $5020.00. He gave me a $1000 discount as ‘professional DotMil’ courtesy…
Almost $3K an hour?
Great work if you can get it amiright?
So yeah, when I got there on Tuesday night, Dave was already there… he was amazed at the lack of exit-wound damage and we went over the WHOLE area of operation to check for spatter and ‘other things’ which included ‘blue lighting’ almost the entirety of her bedroom…. TBH we both, being from a similar background, we were cracking each other the fuck up (for me it was a cope for the fucked-uppedness of what I was dealing with, having to step over DC’s brains-on-the-floor) and it kept me relatively, while cold, but sane…
But yeah…
Blue Lighting her bedroom?
Bad Idea that…
We’ve subsequently found she was doing ALL sorts of fucked up ‘things’ in that bedroom… I’m NOT going into it, but suffice to say, it can’t even become a reality… as in NO ONE would EVER believe what we’ve found out since then…. for a parent, well…
Let’s just say these ‘reality checks/revelations’ have helped
As fucked up as that sounds.
It’s keeping her (G that is) from ‘falsely memorializing’ DC as if she was some sort of redeemable or tragic ‘victim of circumstance’… if anything, it’s hardened her heart, which TBH is making the whole grieving process be accelerated, and with less snivveling and/or sorrow.
Make of THAT what you will.
And since I started ranting about this last night (I needed to get this shit off my chest) The shit we’ve found out since then???
I’m now officially numb
As in done
Over it
Fried
Cooked as the current vernacular holds.
So on that note?
I’ll just say I’m happy Muldoon is doing well… we’re slowly modifying his behavior to go to sleep at a normal time (DC would let him stay up until all hours while she played VR Games) which is desperately needed.
Tomorrow G has to go to the courthouse to drop paperwork, and I’ll be babysitting. The lil booger is doing well, and grins like a fool when he looks at me. So at least I got THAT going for me…
So More Later
Big Country
weird . as my kid got hooked up with a crazy bitch that sounds a lot like DC.
my kid looked at me when I told him, 3 kids by 3 different DADs ? WTF ?
but she had him wrapped around her finger some kind of way.
I told him if he was smart, he put two in her head and drop the bitch in a ditch.
have not spoken with him in more than 8 years now. and yes, the bitch is still around I am told.
so, yeah. I seem evil up close before. both here in the states and overseas.
once you see it, it not something you can forget about. most of the time they have “dead eyes”
like there is no soul inside there. and that seems to be the only clue as to what they really are.
I do hope to God that things settle down and work out for you guys down there.
life should get better without DC in the background waiting to start some shit.
and people have asked me why I cut ties and hide in the woods of pa too.
stay safe, try to stay sane as much as possible. I found that laughing helps a lot with the really stupid
life throws at you. anyway. might be time to see Miss Daisy here again soon.
seems like you where always better after spending some time with her.
although things seem to be getting really weird in NC these past few years. sad, as it was a great place before all of the rich liberal assholes started to move there.
BCE,
God Bless YOU. You are doing the King’s work. Family members who make shit up about other family members are poisonous, oily beings. Had that go on in my own life, different fact pattern. I don’t pity them, I don’t concern myself with them, I do not want to waste my happiness and well-being on them.
There is a tendency among humans that we not only don’t speak ill of the dead but over time turn them into saints.
FUCK that noise !! My ex’s family got pissed when I called bullshit in front of her whole family about her drug dealing cousin who had OD’d and died a month earlier.
I said “fuck this turning him into a saint, most of you wouldn’t let him in your house because he’d either steal from you or case the joint for his druggie buddies. He fucked every one of you over, never did a good thing for anyone and don’t tell me he had a miraculous ‘no one saw’ being saved in his last moments as he OD’d. He ruined how many lives selling his poison and if there is a HELL he’s in it”.
Needless to say many were furious with me mainly because I told the truth and they all knew it.
Ditto with DC !!
That bitch was the MAIN issue between you and G for the last 10 years !! If it wasn’t her directly doing some shit, it was cleaning up after her dealing with HER 3 kids she abandoned.
Dude, she made your life a living fucking Hell !
Regarding G, I get it and you’ve shown us that G was good to you many times in your marriage and did good things for you at times.
BUT she also fucked you over several times and broke your trust. If you guys decide to reconcile, you really NEED to work on your marriage and rebuilding that trust or it will never work long term.
My ex and I went to marriage counseling before the divorce and I remember what the shrink said.
They said “if someone breaks your trust, you may forgive them but can you ever REALLY trust them again ?
For example if you were in a business with your best friend and you found out that they embezzled $50,000 from you. You confronted them, they apologized and paid the money back but could you still stay in business with them ?
To have a successful marriage, you MUST trust each other, know you have each other’s back and can truth them with your life. If you don’t the marriage is doomed long term.
Trust CAN be built back if you both worked hard at it but it will take time and a serious commitment from both of you.
I know you are in “fire fighting” mode now putting out fires but down the road if you guys decide to reconcile these things require a lot of thought and discussions between you both. Good Luck !!
“We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.”
~Charles Bukowski
Stay Strong!
I Continue Praying For You And Your Family ~
As I said before, dogs know. So G was basically insane under DC’s pressure when G hurt Stella.
Stella knows.
Maybe this will settle G down quite a bit. Knowing most of the whole truth helps a lot, too. Sorry you’re having to wade through this all.
Hell, once things settle down, y’all need to go to Cowboy’s or go fishing or something quiet away from everything else. Get as far away as you can and just let the mental poison out.
I’ve had to deal with crap that normal people don’t have to. Not as bad as you, mind you, but the only reason a whole pack of people are still upright is that if I had whacked them I’d be in prison and not able to take care of the one being hurt by the pack of piss-heads. Needless to say, I’m enjoying the news every time I hear one of them croaking off.
With G, if you know of a good counselor (most likely not a licensed counselor but someone who’s been there, done that that isn’t you,) get her some good counseling. The wicked shit that’s gonna start hitting her in her sleep needs to be exorcised as soon as possible. As you said, knowing the truth helps but she still needs to talk about it outside of you. You can help her a lot, but hearing it from a 3rd party (not Sapper, either) will help.
Well, let me say that I’m not that surprised. DC had all the behaviors associated with someone that has substance abuse problems. But the other stuff you allude to, that has all the hallmarks of a person under heavy demonic influence and on the doorstep of possession. That influence would cause her to pull the trigger even if she really did not want to in order to guarantee her eternal damnation. And while I’m not Catholic myself, I do believe in “that stuff”. God willing both of you will heal from the damage caused by DC and your love for each other grow stronger. Dealing with my own challenges lately so I’ll write on proton when I can.
I told you on X that, to me, looking in from the outside, DC was the epicenter of chaos, and that in many ways, her demise is a blessing in disguise.
Looks like I was right.
She is experiencing her just rewards, likely much sooner than she thought.
MIL trained back when it meant something.
FUBAR can be fun but most will fold.
No one is coming to save you or stop you.