{"id":9335,"date":"2026-04-20T00:57:23","date_gmt":"2026-04-20T00:57:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/?p=9335"},"modified":"2026-04-20T01:01:38","modified_gmt":"2026-04-20T01:01:38","slug":"just-venting","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/2026\/04\/20\/just-venting\/","title":{"rendered":"Just Venting"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Greetings and Salutations!<br>OK<br>So <br>Been getting a LOT of DMs from a LOT of you all who have had comms with me in the past, and are concerned that I might be reaching a &#8216;breaking point&#8217;. <br><br>It&#8217;s understandable.<br><br>The reason being is that most &#8216;normal&#8217; folks would have collapsed\/curled up into the fetal position, or just flat out died in wake of this unreal situation. I mean FFS, even Hallmark couldn&#8217;t cook up a made-for-TV drama with <strong>this much<\/strong> bullshit without being called out on it. It&#8217;d be labeled as &#8220;completely unrealistic&#8221; and yet&#8230;. <br><br>Here I am&#8230;<br><br>The only thing missing from this shitshow\/drama-festivus is someone stealing my pickup or raping Stella the Sausage Princess, and writing an unaccredited coutry song about the whole fucking shitshow right?<br><br>Go figure.<br><br>So yeah, as shitty and as tough as it is&#8230;<br>I dunno&#8230;<br>maybe it&#8217;s because I&#8217;m a superior hoomon?<br>I mean fuck&#8230;<br>How <strong>else<\/strong> do I explain it the way as I&#8217;ve jokingly referred to it in the past as &#8220;&#8230;something you stinking puny humans wouldn&#8217;t understand!&#8221; I mean I &#8216;cored&#8217; out on my IQ test when I was a kid as above Einstein. <br><br>I&#8217;m WAY bigger than &#8220;the average bear\/hoomon&#8221;&#8230;<br><br>Believe you me, I <strong>wish<\/strong> I was average.<br>I&#8217;d prefer it.<br><br>However, life\/circumstance(s) has made it where I seem to be a shit-magnet&#8230; NONE of which was by my own choice.<br><br>Case in point:<br>Be me, Baghdad 2004:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"604\" height=\"453\" src=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/27016_389900862626_8316377_n_389900862626.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-9339\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/27016_389900862626_8316377_n_389900862626.jpg 604w, https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/27016_389900862626_8316377_n_389900862626-300x225.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Yep<br>That was the direct hit, and I&#8217;m standing where I <em>should have been<\/em> in front of my wall locker IF I had been on my &#8216;normal schedule&#8217;<br><br>Instead I&#8217;m still alive<br><br>And for those who say I did so by getting w\/G, let me tell you, the first three years were GOLD before DC showed up preggers with the Nukular Powered Red Head&#8230;(now more Strawberry Blonde). In fact almost ALL of the drama in my life can be connected to G trying to &#8220;rescue the unrescuable&#8221; so to speak&#8230; trying to &#8220;salvage the unsalvageable.&#8221;<br><br>In fact, I did a spreadsheet.<br><br>Every. Single. Time. <s>Dumb<\/s> Dead Cunt did <em>something<\/em> fucked up, G had an equal and\/or fucked up reaction to it&#8230; to the point that what she did to Stella? Well&#8230; looking back at it, G was fighting with DC, and I -think- ostensibly it was a reaction to her saying &#8220;No, don&#8217;t do it!&#8221; to the interaction she had with DC&#8230; you&#8217;d have to be here to understand&#8230;<br><br>The thing of it is?<br>Stella <strong>adores<\/strong> G&#8230; <br>STILL<br>ZERO animosity.<br>Not sure if it&#8217;s &#8220;Pittie Blockheadedness&#8221; or what&#8230;<br><br>Thing is, Stella remembers some of the local dogs she tangled with back when she was younger, and she STILL <strong>holds a grudge<\/strong>. Whereas, with G, well&#8230; she&#8217;s crawling up onto G, and Muldoon&#8217;s lap, loving on being the Doggie Mama to BOTH of them&#8230; as G was the one who brought Stella a &#8216;new baby&#8217; to protect&#8230;<br><br>Best Baby Doggie-Mama EVVAR!!!<br>(Stella that is)<br><br>That&#8217;s almost good enough for me.<br><br>So yeah&#8230; Not sure what to say about it.<br>Like I said, NO ONE in this life is without sin, not fault.<br>WE ALL FUCK UP<br><br>I&#8217;ll work on my faults, and G is working on hers.<br><br>Thing of it is, that spreadsheet? And the shit G and I have found out? Hoo-BOY! Well&#8230; this&#8217;s &#8220;The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly&#8221; with the first two, the Good and Bad, being left out, &#8216;cos allllll we got left is a whoooole lot of <strong>Ugly<\/strong>.<br><br>I got to get this out there as, well&#8230;.. I dunno&#8230; when I stated in last nights post, that the <strong>one good thing <\/strong>that came of this was <s>Dumb<\/s> Dead Cunt being an organ donor?<br><br>Unfortunately, it&#8217;s faaar closer to the truth than I like.<br><br>It bothers me as I&#8217;m a good dude, and <em>try<\/em> like Hell to see the good in a person&#8230; in this case? Notsofuckingmucho&#8230;<br><br>I just hope her organs don&#8217;t infect the recipient with &#8216;teh stoopid&#8217;<br><br>To start.<br>90% of what I got is from G and I finding not one, not two but <strong>four<\/strong> cell phones. Now mind you, DC usually claimed (and even came at me on the regular, asking for &#8216;help&#8217; &#8216;cos her mom was &#8216;being mean&#8217;&#8230;) that she didn&#8217;t have a pot to piss in, i.e. NO money (to buy formula for the baby and the like) despite having ALL the welfare\/bennies and shit, and yet had, not just <strong>4 cellies<\/strong> but three of them were the &#8216;latest and greatest models&#8217; so to speak, like a Google Pixel 10 (retail $550+ used) or an Apple iPhone 16 (current <strong>used<\/strong> valuation is $800+) as well as two others.<br><br>What we found on them phones?<br>I&#8217;m not going to go into it.<br>To a point.<br>Needless to say, one overwhelming pattern I found was that DC went <strong>WAAAAY<\/strong> out of her way to play BOTH her parental units off against each other&#8230; like in an <strong>evil\/sadistic<\/strong> way. <br><br>Now to explain in a quick manor.<br><br>DC was primarily responsible for G and her 1st Husband for getting divorced. She was such an <strong>unbelievable nightmare<\/strong> the very fact these two stayed together as long as they did is a testimony to enduring the unendurable as far as I&#8217;m concerned. Lord knows, they tried, but in the end, it all collapsed.<br><br>A big part of it was that DC as the years progressed learned how to manipulate the two of them, Mom and Dad AGAINST each other for her own malignant benefit. Which tells you what sort of insane evil narcissist DC was, piss be on her name &lt;hawwwwwk-spitoo!!>. <br><br>As I&#8217;ve found, she continued this behavior, spinning INSANE stories of how G was essentially a complete Piece of Shit, to the point that when G and I split, G didn&#8217;t help things by telling the OtherGrans some bullshit about me when we seperated&#8230;<br><br>There&#8217;s ALWAYS been some animosity between &#8220;Papa&#8221; (G&#8217;s ex-hubs who I consider a fren, much to G&#8217;s horror LOL) as I still have some with MY Ex (to a point&#8230; TBH I&#8217;m beyond any of that NOW as I have enough &#8216;new shit&#8217; on my plate than to worry about what my Spawn and Ex think of me&#8230; no offense gang, Dada has enough on his current plate, Thankee Very Mucho LOL)<br><br>But yeah, there was the <strong>normal<\/strong> shit.<br>It&#8217;s expected<br><br>When Kylie, the Nukular Redhead showed up, -I- was able to bury a few hatchets so to speak between the two of them, as hey&#8230; it&#8217;s a Grandbaby&#8230; <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">we need to work together<\/span>. I had NONE of the baggage THEY had from all the shit from before, and I <strong>thought<\/strong> I&#8217;d settled that shit, even with &#8220;Papa&#8217;s&#8221; new wife&#8230;<br><br>Thing is&#8230; over the years, I got &#8216;complacent&#8217;<br><br>DC was an evil that even -I- who&#8217;ve seen evil up close and personal&#8230; <strong>true evil<\/strong>&#8230; didn&#8217;t count on&#8230; <br><br>Not sure if I ever mentioned it, but there was a Chinese student kidnapped in Baghdad in and around 2004&#8230; you won&#8217;t find it on the web per se&#8230; it takes a bit of digging.<br><br>It was when the Haj were snatching\/grabbing civilians ALLLL over Iraq, and then beheading them either on video or streaming. In this case, late 2004, Lil Country and I were headed down Route Irish towards Baghdad International Airport&#8230; it was our weekly &#8216;reload&#8217; for booze run&#8230; the van that was about 400 meters in front of me, on the overpass headed to the airport, suddenly braked over the top of the overpass, stopped, and two dudes hustled out what <em>looked like<\/em> a heavy parcel and a smaller package&#8230;<br><br>They threw both items down the hill on the overpass.<br><br>Lil Country and I went to &#8216;full alert&#8217; as ANY shit like this was &#8216;questionable&#8217; at best, and we practically <em>crawled<\/em> up that overpass&#8230; no more driving like normal&#8230; I mean WHAT did they throw? A bomb? or what??? When we got to where the van had stopped, we noticed there was a significant blood stain on the concrete&#8230;. <br><br>So, like dumbasses, we stopped.<br><br>-I- found Joe Chinks nugget<br>Halfway down the hill&#8230; the matted grass gave it away&#8230;<br>I found it, picked it\/him up by his hair, and brought it to the truck&#8230;<br><br>LC found his carcass.<br>About 40 meters away from his squash.<br>Blood soaked orange jumpsuit and all&#8230;<br><br>All we could do was call it in&#8230;<br><br>We let the Army do the &#8216;heavy lifting&#8217; there<br>We ended up missing out on getting to the duty free that day to get out weekly booze ration dammit. <br> <br>Yeah&#8230;<br>THAT was &#8216;true evil&#8217; as I and LC <strong>knew<\/strong> this kid was a student, just trying to study the Jihad and whatnot, and paid for it with his life&#8230;<br><br>And back to the original shit:?<br><strong>DC was that evil<\/strong><br>Wish I could put it otherwise, but nope&#8230;<br>Pure Dee Evil<br>Undiluted hatred of anything good, cool and righteous&#8230;<br><br>So, DC went <strong>way the fuck out of her way<\/strong> to portray G in the <strong>worst possible light<\/strong> with her father. ESPECIALLY after she and I seperated. I mean there&#8217;s shytte, and then there&#8217;s <strong>fookin&#8217; shytte&#8217;<\/strong><br>This shit?<br>OMFG.<br>There&#8217;s a HUGE part of me that <strong>does not want to go into this<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-x-large-font-size\"><strong>BUT<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">There&#8217;s also a  HUGE part of me that wants to &#8216;set the record straight&#8217;.  <br>G deserves it. <br>Papa deserves it.  <br>The Nukular redhead deserves it <br><br>However that being to a point as I really <strong>do NOT <\/strong> want her aware as to HOW fucked up her bio-mom was&#8230;  Papa&#8217;s new-wife has done a <strong>magnificent job<\/strong> being &#8220;mom&#8221; for the Redhead, and I got ZERO complaints&#8230;  she&#8217;s a good woman, despite being a bit &#8216;anal retentive&#8217; for my own liking&#8230; not a &#8220;dis&#8221; on her&#8230; she&#8217;s just too &#8216;straight&#8217; as most normies are compared to my psycho self LOL&#8230;<br><br>BUT<br><br>All of this being said<br>DC <strong>did<\/strong> cause a LOT of &#8216;bad blood&#8217; between G and her X&#8230;<br>Like <strong>epic levels<\/strong><br>ALL for her own crazy self satisfaction<br><br>And man, believe you me, I&#8217;m the first to call out bullshit&#8230;<br>I&#8217;m what Heinlein would have called an &#8220;Absolute Fair Witness&#8221;&#8230; <strong>I got<\/strong> <strong>no axe to grind<\/strong>.  Literally or figuratively.  I just want ALL the parties to understand just <strong>what<\/strong> we were all dealing with.<br><br>Case in point:<br>Dave the Carcass Clean Up Dude.<br>Retired Master Sergeant, 92M, Mortuary Affairs Specialist (leader) turned his DotMil experience into a great paying job.  I mean it was 2 hours of work to get DC&#8217;s brains and spatter off the floor\/walls.  He billed us $5020.00.  He gave me a $1000 discount as &#8216;professional DotMil&#8217; courtesy&#8230;<br><br>Almost $3K an hour?<br><strong>Great work if you can get it amiright?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">So yeah, when I got there on Tuesday night, Dave was already there&#8230; he was amazed at the lack of exit-wound damage and we went over the WHOLE area of operation to check for spatter and &#8216;other things&#8217; which included &#8216;blue lighting&#8217; almost the entirety of her bedroom&#8230;. TBH we both, being from a similar background, we were cracking each other the fuck up (for me it was a cope for the fucked-uppedness of what I was dealing with, having to step over DC&#8217;s brains-on-the-floor) and it kept me relatively, while cold, but <strong>sane<\/strong>&#8230;<br><br>But yeah&#8230;<br>Blue Lighting her bedroom?<br><br>Bad Idea that&#8230;<br>We&#8217;ve subsequently found she was doing ALL sorts of fucked up &#8216;things&#8217; in that bedroom&#8230; I&#8217;m NOT going into it, but suffice to say, it can&#8217;t even <strong>become<\/strong> a reality&#8230; as in NO ONE would EVER believe what we&#8217;ve found out since then&#8230;. for a parent, well&#8230;<br><br>Let&#8217;s just say these &#8216;reality checks\/revelations&#8217; have helped<br><br>As fucked up as that sounds.<br><br>It&#8217;s keeping her (G that is) from &#8216;falsely memorializing&#8217; DC as if she was some sort of redeemable or tragic &#8216;victim of circumstance&#8217;&#8230; if anything, it&#8217;s hardened her heart, which TBH is making the whole grieving process be accelerated, and with less snivveling and\/or sorrow.<br><br>Make of THAT what you will.<br><br>And since I started ranting about this last night (I needed to get this shit off my chest) The shit we&#8217;ve found out since then???<br><br>I&#8217;m now <strong>officially numb<\/strong><br><br>As in done<br>Over it<br>Fried<br>Cooked as the current vernacular holds.<br><br>So on that note?<br>I&#8217;ll just say I&#8217;m happy Muldoon is doing well&#8230; we&#8217;re slowly modifying his behavior to go to sleep at a <strong>normal time <\/strong>(DC would let him stay up until all hours while she played VR Games) which is desperately needed.<br><br>Tomorrow G has to go to the courthouse to drop paperwork, and I&#8217;ll be babysitting.  The lil booger is doing well, and grins like a fool when he looks at me.  So at least I got THAT going for me&#8230;<br>So More Later<br>Big Country<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"540\" height=\"301\" src=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/wake.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-9340\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/wake.jpg 540w, https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/wake-300x167.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 540px) 85vw, 540px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\"><br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Greetings and Salutations!OKSo Been getting a LOT of DMs from a LOT of you all who have had comms with me in the past, and are concerned that I might be reaching a &#8216;breaking point&#8217;. It&#8217;s understandable. The reason being is that most &#8216;normal&#8217; folks would have collapsed\/curled up into the fetal position, or just &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/2026\/04\/20\/just-venting\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Just Venting&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9335","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9335","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9335"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9335\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9342,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9335\/revisions\/9342"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9335"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9335"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9335"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}