{"id":8700,"date":"2025-12-30T19:08:34","date_gmt":"2025-12-30T19:08:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/?p=8700"},"modified":"2025-12-30T19:08:34","modified_gmt":"2025-12-30T19:08:34","slug":"still-alive","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/2025\/12\/30\/still-alive\/","title":{"rendered":"Still Alive"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">NGL&#8230;<br>This&#8217;s been a stone bitch of a &#8220;holiday&#8221;<br>Too much to process.<br><br>Too many things found out&#8230; <br>about Others&#8230;<br>about Myself&#8230;<br><br>Everyone hits a point in their life when it becomes&#8230; life itself that is&#8230; becomes just -there-.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-rich is-provider-twitter wp-block-embed-twitter\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<blockquote class=\"twitter-tweet\" data-width=\"550\" data-dnt=\"true\"><p lang=\"en\" dir=\"ltr\">Men,<br>Drop \ud83d\udcaf if you feel the same\u2026 <a href=\"https:\/\/t.co\/YiMPq9bawO\">pic.twitter.com\/YiMPq9bawO<\/a><\/p>&mdash; Manly Mentor (@manly_mentor) <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/manly_mentor\/status\/2005875495775395880?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw\">December 30, 2025<\/a><\/blockquote><script async src=\"https:\/\/platform.twitter.com\/widgets.js\" charset=\"utf-8\"><\/script>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Yeah&#8230;<br>I&#8217;m still swinging&#8230;<br>Delving deep into this was not good for me to a point.  Darkness overwhelming&#8230; really down.  Still down.   But I&#8217;m getting better&#8230;<br><br>I hope.<br><br>I appreciate all the thoughts and apologize to have set off so many alarms and worries.  Sapper&#8217;s got my back per usual&#8230; he&#8217;s been making sure I&#8217;m still here, God Bless him.  Took me out to go shoot up the woodline the other day.  Pulling a trigger helped <strong>a lot<\/strong>&#8230;   <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">The fact I didn&#8217;t eat my piece means I&#8217;ll be around for a while&#8230; just needed some time to try and reset my &#8220;timing and headspace&#8221; on my own terms and try and find some peace.<br><br>Sure wish I was back in Nawlins to go to that Cathedral again&#8230;  <br><br>Might have to plan that &#8216;cos the churches here are for shit.<br>So thanks again for standing by.<br>More Later<br>Big Country<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"600\" height=\"501\" src=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/calm.webp\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8701\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/calm.webp 600w, https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/calm-300x251.webp 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>NGL&#8230;This&#8217;s been a stone bitch of a &#8220;holiday&#8221;Too much to process. Too many things found out&#8230; about Others&#8230;about Myself&#8230; Everyone hits a point in their life when it becomes&#8230; life itself that is&#8230; becomes just -there-. Yeah&#8230;I&#8217;m still swinging&#8230;Delving deep into this was not good for me to a point. Darkness overwhelming&#8230; really down. Still &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/2025\/12\/30\/still-alive\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Still Alive&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8700","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8700","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8700"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8700\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8702,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8700\/revisions\/8702"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8700"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8700"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bigcountryexpat.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8700"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}